Hunting and Hounding

Hunting and Hounding

Hello! I hope whoever is reading this is having a lovely morning, afternoon, or evening!

It has definitely been one of those weeks and I am struggling.

I have decided to start back up the job hunt. The people here are lovely, but I need something with growth potential. I need something where I feel important, like I'm making a difference. And unfortunately, that just isn't here.

That's totally okay and I wish them the best! But I also wish me the best. And I need more.

I've been traversing LinkedIn and Indeed and I've discovered that finding a meaningful job still feels relatively impossible. As always, it is also disheartening.

I found a job listing that was close to my house and that I felt I was qualified for. I was so excited, so eager to learn and grow. But I still received a rejection. All I have gotten are rejections. Not a single interview. Maybe it is something that I'm doing wrong. Maybe it's my resume.

I don't know.

I just know that I'm tired. So very tired.

I've applied for more positions than I can keep track of. I really am trying. I alter to cover letter every time; I check every detail. I don't know what I'm doing wrong, but if someone could tell me, I would be incredibly grateful.

I even tried connecting with management on LinkedIn. Perhaps this was a bad move. Perhaps I should have just left them alone. But I'm really excited for this position and I really believe that I can help. I'm constantly kicking myself for things I could have added, things I could have said instead. But at the end of the day, does it really matter? I've been left on read and I will never know what I did wrong or what I did right. I think that is what gets me the most about looking for a job these days. It's a guessing game and a game of chance all rolled in to one.

All I need is a chance.